ok .. updates.. since i so rarely do that on here.. i seem to favor myspace.. where its all decorated and i get comments.. ok for one.. i have no idea what the heck is going on between anyone in germany..and well.. thats about everyone on my list.. well the poeple i met in germany... lol.. um.. think i know whats going on with tom.. marquin.. mmm not too sure... but your still cool.. i heart kelly always but i dunno about her either.. maybe i'll send her an email.. either way.. had my last midterm thing.. even though im still in highschool.. worst grades ive ever gotten i'll have to bring those up.. i promise everyone.. anda if i get good act or sat scores all the better.. and i HAVE to take either one this spring.. or i get ym senior privelages taken away.. oh joy.... um still single.. ive dyed my hair again... permed it.. lol.. just a bunch of changes.. im independant to a fault if anyone ever noticed.. i just dont like having to have lik an escort somewhere.... my mom even said i could hold my own in a fight.. if i ever got in one.. dont provoke me poeple...lol... or i will kick your ass... try me... um ok so i still have low self esteem but i hate when people judge my character.. if you dont know me dont assuem things about me.. yes im different and yes im a dork.. adn no im probably not cool but then agian i dont need to be..if someone doesnt like me becuase i happen to love punk rock.. rock.. country.. rap.. rand b.. classical... anything.. if i wear badn tshirts.. look kind a punk one day and prep the next then i dont need you... who cares if i dye my hair ever other month.. if i happen to like change... i dontim me.. ok.. so stuff like thats really bugged me.. why cant people be individuals.. id so much rather be odd. and stand out then one in a million.. always being the follower.... i cant friggen stnad people who arent themselves.. who lie to themselves.. who treat people like crap.... when your younger its easier to explain but all the drama that goes around is just fucking immaturity.. if i dont like you i'll tell you ,...i dont go behind your back and tell your friends that your weird.. that your not cool... i dont go say things like.. shes so ugly and he5r ex is so hot so how did she get him.. i dont tell people how you cant see how i have any friends since im so weird.. i dont do that.. its friggen immature and you know poepl who do that are just stupid.. they may not be jealous but they sure are ignorant and immature .. GROW UP!!!! .. i happen to be weird.. but i happen to be an individual ,.... i dont judge people.. i might think something about you but that thought wont stop me from tlaking to you... chnage my mind.. surprise me... but either 3way that sort of thing has happened to me a lot lately.. i dont care if im weird.. i do homework at lunch.. if i so happen to love to read...... you wont change me.. im tired of pee pressure.. for about the trillion time i will not smoke.. adn i never want to.. i love to druink though. and i do not sleep around.. and terikadagle... lamo.. i will not do weed.. speed.. acid.. shrooms... um none of it...

why cnat people just like me.. dont change me.. i'll change myself.. ok.. so well thats whats been going on.. im weird and too weird to have friends supposidly.. but its all good because those who think that can just leave me a lone.. those who really know me know im really nice and id do anything for anyone..

love you all

ok ok.. update.. i do read all of your guys blogs i just dont like posting on here... um.. lets see im a junior .. i have the hardest schedule out of everyone..... um i have a 2001 mercury cougar.. tons of cool friends.... i'm single.. still.. lol but its cool.. i jsut get to flirt with more people.. gets a little lonely.. oh well oh well. not complaining.. school isnt too fun... im in private school. um dum dum dum.. i'll put more on later.. im tired

hearts me!!!

well well well....im trying to be more frequent i promise!! im busy with stuff! lol lets see... work stinks.. social life stinks.. um life stinks in general! oh well too bad. i have a car! oh my goodness...lol its great just wish that it had tinted windows...llol well comment please.. make me feel special i guess i dunno

much love